A traumatic violent devastating experience has reinvented me. I am not sure who I will be. Who I am. Which parts of who I was have remained, and which parts are gone. Which parts I must grieve, and which needed to go all along. This might be a lifetime project rebirth.
After over six years of devoting my whole self to radical anti-racist activism, it is a terrifying thing to know I can’t spend every waking moment doing that work. That my health and my core guide are telling me I need to do the work in a new and different form. The concrete shape has yet to manifest, but spirituality and artistic creativity are at the center of the new form of my work.
“What we are talking about is an induced–or invited–spiritual experience. I refer to this process as spiritual chiropractic. We undertake certain spiritual exercises to achieve alignment with the creative energy of the universe. If you think of the universe as a vast electrical sea in which you are immersed and from which you are formed, opening to your creativity changes you from something bobbing in that sea to a more fully functioning, more conscious, more cooperative part of that ecosystem.” – The Artist’s Way: A Spiritual Path to Higher Creativity by Julia Cameron